This is a really hard post to write, but an article and conversation today sparked it and I've really wanted to share for awhile. This is NOT at all to make anyone feel bad, but just get our feelings out there and share with and learn from others that have gone through this. Since last June we were parents of quadruplets. Since late September (27th to be exact) we are now parents of triplets. I don't want to speak much more for Nich, but it's been really tough when people see the babies and say "Ooo you had triplets?!" Sometimes we say yes, sometimes we say no. We've really struggled with what to say. It's so hard to say we have triplets. I still don't think I've said it out loud. We want to remember Katelyn and we did/do have quadruplets, but a lot of times we just don't want to explain it to strangers. No matter what we answer, it always leaves a pit in my stomach. I miss Katelyn so much! I miss learning about her, watching her develop, seeing her and Brooklyn interact. When we left the NICU, we started a life as parents of triplets. For the rest of our lives, apart from all of you who remember her, the three will be seen as triplets. I think we'll just smile and say yes, remembering Katelyn in our own hearts.
We've already went through sets of 4, sets of 2 girl things, bought a triple stroller and are learning to carry on with our three precious babies. I think of Katelyn every single day and can't help but notice sets of 3 or sets of 4, yearning to have a set of 4. Hailey talks about her and can't wait to meet her and Macie (one of our friends whose baby died too) when we get to heaven. I feel horrible that Hailey didn't get to meet Katelyn. All she has is pictures. All we have is pictures and memories. I am so thankful that she was the active one while I was pregnant and I cherish those memories! Your prayers and encouragement have met so much to us and really been healing in our grieving process, thank you from the bottom of our hearts! Some days are easier than others, some days are a battle to fight back the tears, but God we know you're in control. We have met amazing people, been placed in situations and learning things we never would have experienced otherwise. We are thankful for those teeny tiny footprints she left and will continue to remember what this experience has taught us.
I know this post is not like our last few, but sometimes I've just gotta get it out. This blog can be so therapeutic sometimes! If any of you moms of multiple loss have any words of wisdom, feel free to share!
He was just eating up the fresh air and sounds!
Once Nich & Hailey got home, we ventured out for a family walk! Wow, we had no idea what we were in for, but the day was beautiful and we wanted to take advantage of it! We visited Hailey's friend about a mile away, but then had to come home! Ended up being 3 mile walk up and down a huge hill. We traded off who pushed the stroller and pulled Hailey. Everyone loved it! We were wiped out when we got home, but loved the fresh air and exercise! 
