Remembering Kateyln

Let me start by thanking everyone for their thoughts and prayers! It is so good to feel so loved!

Our sweet little Katelyn went to be with Jesus this morning, around 5am after a really hard battle. She had been pretty rocky yesterday - getting her Potassium under control. It was really high and started affecting her heart and her lungs. She fought so hard. The nurses called us down around 2pm to be with her. We just cried and prayed as we watched the nurses give her chest compressions and use the bag to help her breathe. We were preparing ourselves for the worst. They were going to give her 2 more sets of compressions and then let her go. We witnessed a miracle and she came back! Her heart rate went back to 80 steadily, then they warmed her up and it was back to the 140 range. We literally watched God work. They nurses weren't touching her, but God's Almighty Hand helped our baby. We felt good and went back to the room to visit with Hailey and family. Later that day we checked on her again. She was have trouble, but no where near what it had been. We said goodnight and came back to get much needed sleep. Around 2am the nurses came back, saying Katelyn wasn't doing well again and we should go see her. Immediately, Mommy and Daddy strength kicked in and we were down in a flash to pray our baby through another rough time. We arrived to see the nurses and doctor just watching her. They had tried something, and all we could do was sit and watch. They again were preparing us for losing her. I just couldn't let her go! She was on the maximum of everything they could give, and her numbers were up again! Not just up, stable up. I physically could not let her go. I told the nurses for myself, I needed to see her numbers go down to know it was time to let her go. I couldn't give up because she was getting tired, I needed to know it was her time to go. After all, my baby was a miracle! Her numbers again stayed up, and we came to get more sleep, until 5am. The nurses came running down and said we needed to come immediately. She was doing bad again. This time they were doing compressions until we got there to watch her go. The HARDEST thing I have ever done or even imagined! That time we felt peace, and knew she was going to be in another place, pain free. They stopped compressions and let us hold her for her last moments. We just rocked her, kissed her, sang to her, everything to pour our love. We went to a nesting room and had alone time with her. We were both able to hold her, say our goodbyes and grieve.

Even though we have no idea why this happened, we have to contine trusting. Our babies are miracles and sent to us for a reason. We are so thankful for the near 3 days we had with our sweet baby and the special chance to say goodbye. Brennan, Landon and Brooklyn are all doing pretty well. Their sister cheering them on from above. We love you Katelyn!

"There is no foot too small that it cannot leave an imprint on this world."